having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. it’s the fear of failure but no urge to be productive, and it’s wanting friends while hating socializing. it’s like running a marathon with the willpower of a corpse because you want to get to the end but you also want to sleep and evaporate into the soil and become compost for snails and flowers because then at least you’re useful
so today my boyfriend told me i’m the girl version of Elliott Smith with a little bleach era Kurt Cobain mixed in so apparently i’m perfect
Reblog this if you started worrying about your weight before you were even 16.
" He didn’t discover me in a coffee shop or anything, like I heard somebody wrote. In fact, I’ve never played in a coffee shop. "
" If you took TV culture and then focused it through a magnifying glass onto a blade of grass and burned it up — that’s what it was like in there, this concentrated version of the same kind of pressure that people feel all the time. You know, ‘Get ahead! Get ahead! Be like everybody else!’ It’s ridiculous. It made things worse. A lot of that seemed to be based on fear: maybe if we scare these people enough they’ll act like they don’t feel like they do. "
" There’s such a pressure to be happy and successful and a winner in America, that’s such a joke. And you’re meant to project that image at all times, otherwise you’re a loser. Then if you complain about the cult of the winner, people assume you are espousing the cult of the outsider. "
" We had an on-and-off relationship by then. Drug use on his part was the main culprit. Drugs, and his lack of interest in his own life. "
—Joanna Bolme, on her relationship with Elliott Smith in 1998 (via obscurelliott